我经常有一种疑惑，觉得某些人不知道为什么可以存活在这个世界上？
想得太多，后来觉得，原来不应该活着的，是我...
不是那种轻生的念头，只是觉得自己没有办法融入这样的世界。
也不是完全不可以，毕竟我还是活了这么久...
只是这样的我，太愤世嫉俗，太容易不快乐。
我常常有一种愤恨，些许的不平衡中有着一丝不被理解的伤痛。
或许是因为学不会的事情有太多，
学不会放宽心胸，
学不会眼不见为净，
学不会忍耐，
学不会原谅，
最重要的，是学不会放下。
因为学不会，所以永远都看不透，永远都不会明白。
这就是人生。
Nov 29, 2009
Nov 27, 2009
Meanie
Called up to check whether the salon is opening or not as today is a public holiday...
Me : Halo, I would like to do waxing. Are you available now?
She : Errrr... wait ar...
-waiting-waiting-waiting-
She : Now cannot wor, can you come at 1.30pm?
Me : Ok can, will come over at 1.30pm then.
She : What you wanna do ar?
Me : Half-leg waxing. 2 person ok?
She : HAR?? 2 person aar?? Then have to do one-by-one de wor...
Me : Of course you're going to do one-by-one, can you do for 2 person at a same time?!!
Yes I am mean.
Me : Halo, I would like to do waxing. Are you available now?
She : Errrr... wait ar...
-waiting-waiting-waiting-
She : Now cannot wor, can you come at 1.30pm?
Me : Ok can, will come over at 1.30pm then.
She : What you wanna do ar?
Me : Half-leg waxing. 2 person ok?
She : HAR?? 2 person aar?? Then have to do one-by-one de wor...
Me : Of course you're going to do one-by-one, can you do for 2 person at a same time?!!
Yes I am mean.
It's Thanksgiving Day!!!
Watching the manager walking to one workstation to another, giving an apple to each of the employee, saying thank you to everyone of them for putting the effort throughout the year. So sweet of them, right? I know the giving green apple was abit... *emhem*, but it was the thoughts that count. ^_^
And I suppose to go along with this Thanksgiving Day, CoE made this month a "Thanks" month, which every member of CoE got the chance to write thank you card to anyone else only WITHIN the CoE. Well, I got one (the one and only, LOL) from eL, thanking me for being her 1st colleague >.< I don't know did that sound logic, but I am still happy! Hee...
Besides apple & thank-you card, we've got marshmallow and also Ferrero Rocher. Since my bf's department is not so thoughtful as mine, so I gave him my chocolate as his thanksgiving gift. So sweet of me right? *haha*
I think girls just love small gift for no reason. Because of those I was kinda happy throughout the whole day, until I went to watch Ninja Assassin...
Thank you everyone, and Happy Thanksgiving!!
And I suppose to go along with this Thanksgiving Day, CoE made this month a "Thanks" month, which every member of CoE got the chance to write thank you card to anyone else only WITHIN the CoE. Well, I got one (the one and only, LOL) from eL, thanking me for being her 1st colleague >.< I don't know did that sound logic, but I am still happy! Hee...
Besides apple & thank-you card, we've got marshmallow and also Ferrero Rocher. Since my bf's department is not so thoughtful as mine, so I gave him my chocolate as his thanksgiving gift. So sweet of me right? *haha*
I think girls just love small gift for no reason. Because of those I was kinda happy throughout the whole day, until I went to watch Ninja Assassin...
Thank you everyone, and Happy Thanksgiving!!
Nov 24, 2009
Nov 18, 2009
Chaos
It all started when I was back from Muar.
My sis's bf was then installing the new wireless router because the adapter of the old one just stopped working without any forewarning. At the same time my sis informed me that the water heater in my room was not functioning, while my dad pointed at the ceiling fan and told me that it was also dead. WHAT?!
Okay fine. I was still good living 2 days showering at my bro's bathroom. And came home today, the auto-gate was not giving me any responds. After several presses (I almost crashed my remote control), finally one side of the gate open slowly like an old snail. Well to be honest I'm not too sure whether an old snail does move slower than a young one, but I just felt that the gate must be a super old one. Called up the auto-gate service person, and he's eating I guess. He told me to use Allen key to open the panel box to get the gate open, I was already IN my house >.< FYI, the panel box is in the house, he expected me to climb in to open up the gate, oh my... Also he asked me to check whether circuit breaker was tripped or not, off the switch and tried again... bla bla bla... for half an hour (*%#$^@!^*@&) and he sounded super reluctant to come over. FINE... After the half-hour talk, my BF and I tried to "service" the auto-gate by all means. Hmmm... it did not respond to the remote control, according to that reluctant guy there might be receiver's failure in the panel box. We couldn't do anything more and would just need to find one day and get the reluctant guy to fix.
Just when I thought I can laze around and watch House/ CSI, BF was at the kitchen re-heat the leftover porridge for me... Guess what? YAY the TV started blinking, on & off by itself; so as the microwave, refrigerator and water boiler... and lights joined the party and danced along. But that was NO FUN, I felt like that was a making of ghost scene. We started to off these electric devices one-by-one, trying to locate which was the "one" that made all these happened. Conclusion: No Idea, argh~ BF then called TNB to check whether there's any problem in my housing area and TNB said that they'd come over and have a look. Wuah, good service!
But not efficient enough, took them 1 hour to reach my place and they told us to off the main switch in case there was any electricity leak. We off it half an hour later and basically waited in the dark for another half an hour. BF was mumbling/ hoping that things can be fixed by 10pm, so that we still can watch CSI. lol. And two old-middle-aged men came with big spot light, did a prelim check and told us everything was fine. Huh? Then we demonstrated the ghost scene to them by switching on the main switch, with all lights on. They then started to work with wires and sparks, and told us we should have switched everything on so that they could detect what went wrong. sigh... An hour ago they were the one told us to off the main switch lea, but I forgive old men for their short term memory failure as they were really nice and I did not give them any "duit kopi"... *proud*
Law of Attraction -- with BF's mumbling, everything was back to normal j.i.t @ 10pm. We got to watch CSI and ate my porridge. *peace* All these chaos made me completely moodless to continue my work, who cares? It's okay to be lazy sometimes =)
I am headache now... to find proper people at the convenient day and time to fix the auto-gate, my water heater, and also the ceiling fan... etc... I suspect that the unstable current burned down my home appliances one-by-one T_T
On a seperate note, we were so bored waiting so I camwhore a little...
Didn't realize that the small little yellow flower plant has grown so much~!!
At one point I thought it's going to die soon... :P
While waiting for TNB people... *haha*
It was drizzling weih...
My sis's bf was then installing the new wireless router because the adapter of the old one just stopped working without any forewarning. At the same time my sis informed me that the water heater in my room was not functioning, while my dad pointed at the ceiling fan and told me that it was also dead. WHAT?!
Okay fine. I was still good living 2 days showering at my bro's bathroom. And came home today, the auto-gate was not giving me any responds. After several presses (I almost crashed my remote control), finally one side of the gate open slowly like an old snail. Well to be honest I'm not too sure whether an old snail does move slower than a young one, but I just felt that the gate must be a super old one. Called up the auto-gate service person, and he's eating I guess. He told me to use Allen key to open the panel box to get the gate open, I was already IN my house >.< FYI, the panel box is in the house, he expected me to climb in to open up the gate, oh my... Also he asked me to check whether circuit breaker was tripped or not, off the switch and tried again... bla bla bla... for half an hour (*%#$^@!^*@&) and he sounded super reluctant to come over. FINE... After the half-hour talk, my BF and I tried to "service" the auto-gate by all means. Hmmm... it did not respond to the remote control, according to that reluctant guy there might be receiver's failure in the panel box. We couldn't do anything more and would just need to find one day and get the reluctant guy to fix.
Just when I thought I can laze around and watch House/ CSI, BF was at the kitchen re-heat the leftover porridge for me... Guess what? YAY the TV started blinking, on & off by itself; so as the microwave, refrigerator and water boiler... and lights joined the party and danced along. But that was NO FUN, I felt like that was a making of ghost scene. We started to off these electric devices one-by-one, trying to locate which was the "one" that made all these happened. Conclusion: No Idea, argh~ BF then called TNB to check whether there's any problem in my housing area and TNB said that they'd come over and have a look. Wuah, good service!
But not efficient enough, took them 1 hour to reach my place and they told us to off the main switch in case there was any electricity leak. We off it half an hour later and basically waited in the dark for another half an hour. BF was mumbling/ hoping that things can be fixed by 10pm, so that we still can watch CSI. lol. And two old-middle-aged men came with big spot light, did a prelim check and told us everything was fine. Huh? Then we demonstrated the ghost scene to them by switching on the main switch, with all lights on. They then started to work with wires and sparks, and told us we should have switched everything on so that they could detect what went wrong. sigh... An hour ago they were the one told us to off the main switch lea, but I forgive old men for their short term memory failure as they were really nice and I did not give them any "duit kopi"... *proud*
Law of Attraction -- with BF's mumbling, everything was back to normal j.i.t @ 10pm. We got to watch CSI and ate my porridge. *peace* All these chaos made me completely moodless to continue my work, who cares? It's okay to be lazy sometimes =)
I am headache now... to find proper people at the convenient day and time to fix the auto-gate, my water heater, and also the ceiling fan... etc... I suspect that the unstable current burned down my home appliances one-by-one T_T
On a seperate note, we were so bored waiting so I camwhore a little...
Didn't realize that the small little yellow flower plant has grown so much~!!At one point I thought it's going to die soon... :P
While waiting for TNB people... *haha*It was drizzling weih...
Nov 15, 2009
过去与未来
我不晓得哪里还可以找到这样的戏院...
电影开场前半个小时才可以排队买票；
Manual 的购票方式，一张 A4 的 seating plan，被选了的位置会被打个“X”；
戏票像是去“非法”游乐场的入门卷，手写位置再盖上当天的日期；
只有两间放映室的戏院；
整个楼层中充斥着烟味夹杂潮湿发霉的一种气味，像关丹Teruntum的味道；
应该是 n 年前的马来文翻译 -- SINEPLEKS，比现在的各富有本土特色。
大致上，跟现在的 GSC， TGV，Cineplex 没多大的差别，
除了SINEPLEX 里头完全采用自然风，我想里头可能有抽风机，但肯定没有风扇;
除了看到中场时放映机会突然故障，出现干扰现象；
或者字幕呈现颠倒状态，抑或有别的电影穿插其中...
大致上还是不错，也蛮幸运的...
没有人在里头啃 KFC，没有蟑螂老鼠到处跑...
还是不错的...
我去GSC，TGV，Cineplex 从来都没有这么“山菇”兼兴奋地拍过照，
可想而知我对于在这种传统电影院看 2012 有多么大的期待~
一种过去与未来的交错，
回到十五年前，去体会我们可能会面临的末日。 ^_^
电影开场前半个小时才可以排队买票；
Manual 的购票方式，一张 A4 的 seating plan，被选了的位置会被打个“X”；
戏票像是去“非法”游乐场的入门卷，手写位置再盖上当天的日期；
只有两间放映室的戏院；
整个楼层中充斥着烟味夹杂潮湿发霉的一种气味，像关丹Teruntum的味道；
应该是 n 年前的马来文翻译 -- SINEPLEKS，比现在的各富有本土特色。
大致上，跟现在的 GSC， TGV，Cineplex 没多大的差别，
除了SINEPLEX 里头完全采用自然风，我想里头可能有抽风机，但肯定没有风扇;
除了看到中场时放映机会突然故障，出现干扰现象；
或者字幕呈现颠倒状态，抑或有别的电影穿插其中...
大致上还是不错，也蛮幸运的...
没有人在里头啃 KFC，没有蟑螂老鼠到处跑...
还是不错的...
我去GSC，TGV，Cineplex 从来都没有这么“山菇”兼兴奋地拍过照，
可想而知我对于在这种传统电影院看 2012 有多么大的期待~
一种过去与未来的交错，
回到十五年前，去体会我们可能会面临的末日。 ^_^
Nov 11, 2009
对话
从关丹回来 KL ，总会经过云顶山脚的。
就在那一天...
我：eiiii... 我们没有一起去过云顶叻~
他：对 hor... 怎么没有想过？
[我们最常去的地方是麻坡和关丹 >.<]
我：好啦，找一天我们一定要去云顶！
他：好...!
我：因为每一对情侣都会去云顶！！
他：......
就在那一天...
我：eiiii... 我们没有一起去过云顶叻~
他：对 hor... 怎么没有想过？
[我们最常去的地方是麻坡和关丹 >.<]
我：好啦，找一天我们一定要去云顶！
他：好...!
我：因为每一对情侣都会去云顶！！
他：......
Oct 28, 2009
At the end of the day
This satisfied the late stay ^_^
Didn't realize that Nando's has such nice packing for take-aways.
Take me home -- so cutee...
By the way, just wanted to let you know that...
believe yourself as you always did,
you know that there is no way to please everyone in this world.
I really meant e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e.
So just stop letting people sway you away,
those are just disturbance, alright?
Love you... and please love yourself too =)
At the end of the day, you are the one to judge your life.
Not those e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e, of course.
Sep 20, 2009
换发
在心情很不好的一个工作天，望着镜子里的自己，想不到哪里出了问题...
没头没脑的就跟男友说：“我想要换发型了！”
过了两个星期，我回来了。
回到关丹常去的发廊，足足坐了四个小时，如愿地换了一个全新的发型。
说真的，看到新的发型的那一刻，我以为见到了我的韩国上司... *哈*
不知道回去上班的时候老板会不会怀疑我在“抄袭”她的发型？
发型师的老婆一直说我太可爱了~！
男友从笑脸盈盈换成大眼 O嘴型，后来还拼命解释他并没有觉得不好看...
抱歉我还是没有办法把那种表情当成是一种赞美 >.<
妈妈还是一贯地说好看，埋怨Ken（发型师）只会做年轻人的头。
认识我的朋友都知道我三不五时就会拿我的头发开刀，
其实说穿了我只是享受发型换了那一刻的快感，
总觉得有中浴火重生的一种振奋。
虽然这样的形容有太多的夸张，
但是我深深的觉得我又可以重新再站起来了。
当然不是每一个人都可以认同我的品位，
我有一些发型总让人嗤笑很久。
我当然也没怎么理会，
反正短发会变长发，卷发会变直发，惊吓会变习惯...
只是我还是我 =)
我有放话叫男友要经常有心理准备，
不要看到我有了新发型就出现那一副心脏衰竭的表情。
他还是稍稍的坚持他比较喜欢我们刚认识的时候我的那一头短发。
嗯... 再等等吧，我正在留长呢！
说真的，我觉得这个发型有一点太可爱了~
让我走路的时候不自觉想要蹦跳着走，
怎么上班呢？
我又开始懊恼了... T_T
没头没脑的就跟男友说：“我想要换发型了！”
过了两个星期，我回来了。
回到关丹常去的发廊，足足坐了四个小时，如愿地换了一个全新的发型。
说真的，看到新的发型的那一刻，我以为见到了我的韩国上司... *哈*
不知道回去上班的时候老板会不会怀疑我在“抄袭”她的发型？
发型师的老婆一直说我太可爱了~！
男友从笑脸盈盈换成大眼 O嘴型，后来还拼命解释他并没有觉得不好看...
抱歉我还是没有办法把那种表情当成是一种赞美 >.<
妈妈还是一贯地说好看，埋怨Ken（发型师）只会做年轻人的头。
认识我的朋友都知道我三不五时就会拿我的头发开刀，
其实说穿了我只是享受发型换了那一刻的快感，
总觉得有中浴火重生的一种振奋。
虽然这样的形容有太多的夸张，
但是我深深的觉得我又可以重新再站起来了。
当然不是每一个人都可以认同我的品位，
我有一些发型总让人嗤笑很久。
我当然也没怎么理会，
反正短发会变长发，卷发会变直发，惊吓会变习惯...
只是我还是我 =)
我有放话叫男友要经常有心理准备，
不要看到我有了新发型就出现那一副心脏衰竭的表情。
他还是稍稍的坚持他比较喜欢我们刚认识的时候我的那一头短发。
嗯... 再等等吧，我正在留长呢！
说真的，我觉得这个发型有一点太可爱了~
让我走路的时候不自觉想要蹦跳着走，
怎么上班呢？
我又开始懊恼了... T_T
May 30, 2009
Untitled
I find myself express better in chinese. HOWEVER... I don't know why the chinese input isn't working!!! >.<
But emmm... I just feel like writing something now, just feel like it thought I've no idea what is going to be at the end of my post, haha...
Well... I didn't really have a great day though I went out shopping with my family :P Disorder of my hormones made me lost control, and yea, I shouted at the staffs in TOPSHOP! YES you didn't read me wrong, I Y-E-L-L-E-D at them in front of so many people... so embarrassing whenever I think of what I did this afternoon... Audrey oh Audrey, why are you like this??!!! *blame the hormones*
My sis said she forgot to snap the picture of me scolding people, as well as the picture of those that "kena" from me -__________________-||| She ended up didn't buy a dress that she had tried because I got so mad at that time (anyway you can buy it in other outlets Money Lim, I helped you to save money tho :D). To me, they just don't know what they're doing, and I really couldn't tolerate bad service... probably I should really consider to change my name :P okay that's another scope of topic... hahaha...
Hmmm... end of the month again... it's fast & slow, weird huh? Something happened too fast without me realize, something were like too long for me although they're actually just short while. Things aren't measuring in the same way I guess, and not all of them are measurable. There're times that I did what I want to do, I said what I have to say. They're hard & painful, but if I continue to neglect and hide my head in the sand, things would be worse. So I took steps, and I'm good now. Really good & happy, happy for who I am, happy that finally I am who I am =)
I fall in love with this song, And When She Danced by David Foster & Marylin Martin. It's in my repeating loop now, singing & singing... and whenever it plays, I feel like dancing... after so many years... :P
But emmm... I just feel like writing something now, just feel like it thought I've no idea what is going to be at the end of my post, haha...
Well... I didn't really have a great day though I went out shopping with my family :P Disorder of my hormones made me lost control, and yea, I shouted at the staffs in TOPSHOP! YES you didn't read me wrong, I Y-E-L-L-E-D at them in front of so many people... so embarrassing whenever I think of what I did this afternoon... Audrey oh Audrey, why are you like this??!!! *blame the hormones*
My sis said she forgot to snap the picture of me scolding people, as well as the picture of those that "kena" from me -__________________-||| She ended up didn't buy a dress that she had tried because I got so mad at that time (anyway you can buy it in other outlets Money Lim, I helped you to save money tho :D). To me, they just don't know what they're doing, and I really couldn't tolerate bad service... probably I should really consider to change my name :P okay that's another scope of topic... hahaha...
Hmmm... end of the month again... it's fast & slow, weird huh? Something happened too fast without me realize, something were like too long for me although they're actually just short while. Things aren't measuring in the same way I guess, and not all of them are measurable. There're times that I did what I want to do, I said what I have to say. They're hard & painful, but if I continue to neglect and hide my head in the sand, things would be worse. So I took steps, and I'm good now. Really good & happy, happy for who I am, happy that finally I am who I am =)
I fall in love with this song, And When She Danced by David Foster & Marylin Martin. It's in my repeating loop now, singing & singing... and whenever it plays, I feel like dancing... after so many years... :P
*I know the MV is like...... a little "retro", but it's a 1988's song okay? :D
Apr 21, 2009
生活
最近一直在想，其实我是在做着我想要做的事情吗？就算是踏板，就算有很好的理由，这些真的是我想要的吗？虽然已经设定了期限，但是我还是会害怕，害怕我在坚持一些对我来说毫无意义的事情。
我每天会很期待第二天的上班，6点起床，7点出门，8点之前踏入公司，9点才“正式”工作。工作时间中期待 lunch time，吃了午餐过后坐在我的座位上开始期待下班，下班时间到了以后，心中总是会有一阵恐慌... 这样又一天了吗？在那一瞬间，有种不想回家的感觉。回家以后，总要花一段时间发呆，好像发呆可以平复我的惶恐。容易为小事伤感，转眼却看到透过云层的光而微笑了起来。然后，睡觉时间到了，睡觉之前还是会期待第二天的上班... 日复一日... 情绪上的这些曲折，让我有些不胜负荷了...
我想，我只是在逃避生命的某一些部分，好像这个部分不归于我，却在错乱的巧合下，空降在我的生命中，如此而已。
我每天会很期待第二天的上班，6点起床，7点出门，8点之前踏入公司，9点才“正式”工作。工作时间中期待 lunch time，吃了午餐过后坐在我的座位上开始期待下班，下班时间到了以后，心中总是会有一阵恐慌... 这样又一天了吗？在那一瞬间，有种不想回家的感觉。回家以后，总要花一段时间发呆，好像发呆可以平复我的惶恐。容易为小事伤感，转眼却看到透过云层的光而微笑了起来。然后，睡觉时间到了，睡觉之前还是会期待第二天的上班... 日复一日... 情绪上的这些曲折，让我有些不胜负荷了...
我想，我只是在逃避生命的某一些部分，好像这个部分不归于我，却在错乱的巧合下，空降在我的生命中，如此而已。
Apr 16, 2009
心理测验
忘了在什么时候，也不记得在哪里，我曾做过了这么一个心理测验，看了测验结果后觉得好像准，也好像不是很准。自己笑了笑，笑自己的不以为然，可是却还专注的消化答案。无聊是吧？通常心理测验的答案都是模棱两可的，看当事人自己怎么诠释，虽然像是骗小孩子的玩意，可是我还是很爱做心理测验，尤其是关于我本身是一个怎样的人。总在很多答案之中，检视自己的性格，以一个第三者的身份，像解密似的一层一层剥开，慢慢往更深处的自己举证审视。
那个测验好像是在朋友眼中，我到底是怎么样的一个人。测验结果好像是这样的：我总是让人有冷冷的，不好接近的感觉；但是只要朋友主动打破隔阂，我就可以天南地北聊个不停，迅速地建立起友谊，变成了很好的朋友。但是，到了那个阶段以后，朋友会开始觉得我很难懂，有时好像突然间又变得很陌生，变得不能交心，跟之前的阶段有所落差。那是因为我是个很难掏心的人，就算是让朋友觉得大家好像很亲密了，我还是有一层保护膜。但是可以让我卸下那一层的冷漠，就是莫逆了，而且会让我把这些人当成生命中最重要的人，在心里的地位无以撼动。
怎么样？是不是有点准，可又好像有点不准呢？这个测验应该是做了满久的，我不知道为什么今天我一直在想着这个测验，我完全不晓得原来我记得这个测验和答案。奇怪吧？有时蛮佩服我的脑，不知道什么时候塞进了这么多“资讯”，却没有通知我；闲来无事的时候就灌顶我一下，像是宣告，又似示威，怕我忘了我的思想其实是由大脑掌控的，怕我会一直与心交流，渐渐忘了脑。谢谢脑，但是我今天还是倾听心的叙诉，不想挣扎，也不想再争论我到底是一个怎么样的人了。
我的心告诉我，这个心理测验真的很准，我就是一个这么样的人。难以亲近，有点孤僻。但是走进了我的圈圈里头的人，却一定是我这一辈子最可以为你们赴汤蹈火的人。因为你们给的快乐很多，给的感动很深，给的伤口可以被复原，给的泪水可以很温暖，成为我可以很坚强的理由。
不要问我怎么样才可以走进我的圈圈里头，那是不需要努力和条件的。我想，那是一种缘分所释放的频率，一种心与心很接近的频率，一种就算不说话也可以很安然的频率。不要问我为什么，那也是不需要解释，也没有得解释的。生命中的这些相附相依，原本就是很玄奥的。所以为什么，有人可以相隔十万八千里，一年都见不到一次面，感情却可以一直升温；所以为什么，有人可以近在眼前，你却永远也踩不进他的世界。不要难过你没有办法跨进他的领域，那表示你们的频率不是在同一个定点上，勉强让你进入，你收到的，也只是杂音甚至是更高分贝的吵杂。原来，有时不要强求也是一种难能可贵的幸福。
为什么突然会有着这一堆的想法萦绕着我？我也没办法解释。但是当所有思绪被归纳了的时候，突然觉得轻松了起来。
脑啊，你是不是也听懂了心，开始受它蛊惑了呢？
那个测验好像是在朋友眼中，我到底是怎么样的一个人。测验结果好像是这样的：我总是让人有冷冷的，不好接近的感觉；但是只要朋友主动打破隔阂，我就可以天南地北聊个不停，迅速地建立起友谊，变成了很好的朋友。但是，到了那个阶段以后，朋友会开始觉得我很难懂，有时好像突然间又变得很陌生，变得不能交心，跟之前的阶段有所落差。那是因为我是个很难掏心的人，就算是让朋友觉得大家好像很亲密了，我还是有一层保护膜。但是可以让我卸下那一层的冷漠，就是莫逆了，而且会让我把这些人当成生命中最重要的人，在心里的地位无以撼动。
怎么样？是不是有点准，可又好像有点不准呢？这个测验应该是做了满久的，我不知道为什么今天我一直在想着这个测验，我完全不晓得原来我记得这个测验和答案。奇怪吧？有时蛮佩服我的脑，不知道什么时候塞进了这么多“资讯”，却没有通知我；闲来无事的时候就灌顶我一下，像是宣告，又似示威，怕我忘了我的思想其实是由大脑掌控的，怕我会一直与心交流，渐渐忘了脑。谢谢脑，但是我今天还是倾听心的叙诉，不想挣扎，也不想再争论我到底是一个怎么样的人了。
我的心告诉我，这个心理测验真的很准，我就是一个这么样的人。难以亲近，有点孤僻。但是走进了我的圈圈里头的人，却一定是我这一辈子最可以为你们赴汤蹈火的人。因为你们给的快乐很多，给的感动很深，给的伤口可以被复原，给的泪水可以很温暖，成为我可以很坚强的理由。
不要问我怎么样才可以走进我的圈圈里头，那是不需要努力和条件的。我想，那是一种缘分所释放的频率，一种心与心很接近的频率，一种就算不说话也可以很安然的频率。不要问我为什么，那也是不需要解释，也没有得解释的。生命中的这些相附相依，原本就是很玄奥的。所以为什么，有人可以相隔十万八千里，一年都见不到一次面，感情却可以一直升温；所以为什么，有人可以近在眼前，你却永远也踩不进他的世界。不要难过你没有办法跨进他的领域，那表示你们的频率不是在同一个定点上，勉强让你进入，你收到的，也只是杂音甚至是更高分贝的吵杂。原来，有时不要强求也是一种难能可贵的幸福。
为什么突然会有着这一堆的想法萦绕着我？我也没办法解释。但是当所有思绪被归纳了的时候，突然觉得轻松了起来。
脑啊，你是不是也听懂了心，开始受它蛊惑了呢？
Apr 13, 2009
The 11th Monday
Hola, it's Monday again... Time just passed when I don't realize it, it's already mid of April, but I feel that have not yet do anything for this year. Couldn't really recall what I've done, loitering in my office? lolZ...
Just got to go back to Kuantan last weekend, pretty fast weekend, but I felt great! =)
Went to urut my leg twice, and now I'm suffering the "after-urut" effect. That wasn't a great experience coz I was in pain until I don't feel like talking but the urut master kept asking me questions and expected my answer >.< HALO... can't you see my face had crumpled and out of shape???!!! How'd you expect me to talk when my mouth was not at the right place??? I'd have few more times to go, please bless me!
Had the chance to sort of have a "deep" talk with my mum, about her children in future life. Well, at this stage... I think my mum puts more concern in her children's marriage. MARRIAGE??!!! Oh yea that's the word... too young to listen to that rite? But hmmm... I'm in this topic with my mum *wat da...*
I always thought that my mum wouldn't really be willing when one day her daughter tells her that she's gonna get married. Coz girls are to married to another family, somehow it's saddening to have to be really apart with the little girl that has always been taken care very well. I was telling my mum that I bet she'll cry like hell if my sister really marries her bf, hahaha... Well, ended up my mum started to think of the possibilities to introduce my bro's friends to me *faint* I'm gonna find other victims or other subject to divert my mum attention before she starts to take any action!!!
Although the topic is way out of my scope, I still enjoyed the time talking to her, lying on her painful laps, behaved as though I'm a spoiled child. It feels like... I'm having lesser and lesser chance to be like that, sad rite? Ahh... I'm so complicated again... enjoy but sad... lol~
Just got to go back to Kuantan last weekend, pretty fast weekend, but I felt great! =)
Went to urut my leg twice, and now I'm suffering the "after-urut" effect. That wasn't a great experience coz I was in pain until I don't feel like talking but the urut master kept asking me questions and expected my answer >.< HALO... can't you see my face had crumpled and out of shape???!!! How'd you expect me to talk when my mouth was not at the right place??? I'd have few more times to go, please bless me!
Had the chance to sort of have a "deep" talk with my mum, about her children in future life. Well, at this stage... I think my mum puts more concern in her children's marriage. MARRIAGE??!!! Oh yea that's the word... too young to listen to that rite? But hmmm... I'm in this topic with my mum *wat da...*
I always thought that my mum wouldn't really be willing when one day her daughter tells her that she's gonna get married. Coz girls are to married to another family, somehow it's saddening to have to be really apart with the little girl that has always been taken care very well. I was telling my mum that I bet she'll cry like hell if my sister really marries her bf, hahaha... Well, ended up my mum started to think of the possibilities to introduce my bro's friends to me *faint* I'm gonna find other victims or other subject to divert my mum attention before she starts to take any action!!!
Although the topic is way out of my scope, I still enjoyed the time talking to her, lying on her painful laps, behaved as though I'm a spoiled child. It feels like... I'm having lesser and lesser chance to be like that, sad rite? Ahh... I'm so complicated again... enjoy but sad... lol~
Apr 5, 2009
扼腕
你知道，人生就是一直在做选择、在作决定。某些时候，有些决定做得太快，实践得太有效率，太... 让人扼腕...
毅然地服食了伤风特效药后，才猛然发现时间过早。打算一觉睡到天亮的，但总不能从中午睡到第二天早上吧？又不是昏迷药。
唉... 扼腕呀...
毅然地服食了伤风特效药后，才猛然发现时间过早。打算一觉睡到天亮的，但总不能从中午睡到第二天早上吧？又不是昏迷药。
唉... 扼腕呀...
Mar 1, 2009
过了的最爱
二月是我一年之中最喜欢的月份。
也许是生日月份的关系，就是那种天性根本的喜爱了。
当然，我最爱的月份不见得是我一年之中过得最开心的，虽然我极私心的希望着。
我很遗憾，我最喜欢的月份，就这么的过了...
在开心时参夹着心碎；
在温暖中感受到失落；
在感激里深深的愧疚着；
在空虚中却奇异地欢乐着。
三月了，
我却还像是漫无目的在过生活。
每天每天，都在提醒自己，
该做些什么了，
该鼓起勇气了，
该继续地往前走了。
可我，却极怕痛极怕累，
不敢往前看，等待我的究竟有什么...
再多一些时间，可以吗？
也许是生日月份的关系，就是那种天性根本的喜爱了。
当然，我最爱的月份不见得是我一年之中过得最开心的，虽然我极私心的希望着。
我很遗憾，我最喜欢的月份，就这么的过了...
在开心时参夹着心碎；
在温暖中感受到失落；
在感激里深深的愧疚着；
在空虚中却奇异地欢乐着。
三月了，
我却还像是漫无目的在过生活。
每天每天，都在提醒自己，
该做些什么了，
该鼓起勇气了，
该继续地往前走了。
可我，却极怕痛极怕累，
不敢往前看，等待我的究竟有什么...
再多一些时间，可以吗？
Feb 8, 2009
Working
I've started working... for a week. Hmmm...nothing much I can do in the first week. Basically I just drank coffee, surfed net, read some materials which made me kinda blur, chatting, day-dreaming, and boring most of the time. I'm not complaining, just describing what I was doing in the office for the past 1 week. I'm not into the working life, yet. And so, I'm still looking forward for that. :P
I hate to be in a new environment, but at the same time that's what I want in this moment. So contradict right? Okay I know I'm a complicated girl. But don't you all think it's something very hard to get use to a new place, blending with new people, make yoursef totally comfortable in that situation? I'm an introvert person. Yes I AM. I'm learning to get over it.
I'm planning to decorate my workplace. Well, decorate sounds abit weird, just wanna make my workplace more... home-ly. But for goodness sake, I'm not sure whether the place I'm sitting now consider "MY" workplace or not. It's not like I'm sitting on someone's place, but there'd be big possibility that my whole team is gonna shift to a bigger workstation, within unsure time-frame, maybe in a month, or 3 months, or 6 months? I've got no idea. I hate the feeling of re-locating all my stuffs when I feel I've already settled down. See, I don't like to change, especially in a very short period. But anyway, I've still listed down what I wish to have or to bring to my workplace, haha...
A lot of people asked me, why you wanna work? Why not? Am I not look like those people that will work? I guess so, if not you all won't ask, lol~ I don't have any plans for my future, I don't know what I wanna do after I graduate, I don't know what dreams I do have or had before... I'm just empty. Being empty is not a good sign, that makes me wonder a lot, too a lot until I think I can't take it. So... I do what comes to me. I always believe, there will be something, that will come to my life eventually. Not forcefully, not unwanted, it is simply natural.
So, here I am now --- working. Just like any other ordinary people. =)
I hate to be in a new environment, but at the same time that's what I want in this moment. So contradict right? Okay I know I'm a complicated girl. But don't you all think it's something very hard to get use to a new place, blending with new people, make yoursef totally comfortable in that situation? I'm an introvert person. Yes I AM. I'm learning to get over it.
I'm planning to decorate my workplace. Well, decorate sounds abit weird, just wanna make my workplace more... home-ly. But for goodness sake, I'm not sure whether the place I'm sitting now consider "MY" workplace or not. It's not like I'm sitting on someone's place, but there'd be big possibility that my whole team is gonna shift to a bigger workstation, within unsure time-frame, maybe in a month, or 3 months, or 6 months? I've got no idea. I hate the feeling of re-locating all my stuffs when I feel I've already settled down. See, I don't like to change, especially in a very short period. But anyway, I've still listed down what I wish to have or to bring to my workplace, haha...
A lot of people asked me, why you wanna work? Why not? Am I not look like those people that will work? I guess so, if not you all won't ask, lol~ I don't have any plans for my future, I don't know what I wanna do after I graduate, I don't know what dreams I do have or had before... I'm just empty. Being empty is not a good sign, that makes me wonder a lot, too a lot until I think I can't take it. So... I do what comes to me. I always believe, there will be something, that will come to my life eventually. Not forcefully, not unwanted, it is simply natural.
So, here I am now --- working. Just like any other ordinary people. =)
Feb 1, 2009
还是我们
我真的没事了。如果那是在我生命中必定得经历的，我很庆幸它发生得早，并且已经结束了。所以，不要自责，不要担心了，好吗？
我曾经有希望的，希望有你或是谁，抱着我告诉我，事情会过去的，难过会结束的；还有很多很爱我的人，会陪着我度过的。只是当时的我从来没有敞开过，所以，千万千万不要责怪自己为什么不在我的身边与我分担，我会觉得很愧疚，让你那么自责担心。
真的都过去了，而我也依然好好的。学习着原谅、抚平、放下、然后遗忘。
我还是要常常告诉你，不要担心距离会疏远我们。虽然我不相信爱情可以战胜距离，但是却深信令我珍惜的友谊是不会被动摇的。在你眼里，我还是和以前一样，在我眼里，你亦如是；其实岁月并没有将我们的本质磨褪，反而更凸显，也更坚定于我们看待生命与生活的想法。这种种，不就是最好的证明了吗？
当然，你还是要常常回来找我，让我看看你，让你记得我，让我忘不了你。然后，我就开始存钱，再让你包吃包住包玩。虽然不能常在一起，但是我们不但能在时间上一起长大，还可以在岁月中一起变老，在不同的天空下一起体会。
好好照顾自己，要很快乐的生活，有事也要记得找我，不然我会忘记我在你生命中所存在的位置和扮演的角色。知道你过得很好，我才会原谅你离我那么远 (=P)。没有啦，知道你过得很好，我真的很替你开心，也会努力让自己过得更好。真的，我会过得好好的，然后再期待我们下一次的见面...
我曾经有希望的，希望有你或是谁，抱着我告诉我，事情会过去的，难过会结束的；还有很多很爱我的人，会陪着我度过的。只是当时的我从来没有敞开过，所以，千万千万不要责怪自己为什么不在我的身边与我分担，我会觉得很愧疚，让你那么自责担心。
真的都过去了，而我也依然好好的。学习着原谅、抚平、放下、然后遗忘。
我还是要常常告诉你，不要担心距离会疏远我们。虽然我不相信爱情可以战胜距离，但是却深信令我珍惜的友谊是不会被动摇的。在你眼里，我还是和以前一样，在我眼里，你亦如是；其实岁月并没有将我们的本质磨褪，反而更凸显，也更坚定于我们看待生命与生活的想法。这种种，不就是最好的证明了吗？
当然，你还是要常常回来找我，让我看看你，让你记得我，让我忘不了你。然后，我就开始存钱，再让你包吃包住包玩。虽然不能常在一起，但是我们不但能在时间上一起长大，还可以在岁月中一起变老，在不同的天空下一起体会。
好好照顾自己，要很快乐的生活，有事也要记得找我，不然我会忘记我在你生命中所存在的位置和扮演的角色。知道你过得很好，我才会原谅你离我那么远 (=P)。没有啦，知道你过得很好，我真的很替你开心，也会努力让自己过得更好。真的，我会过得好好的，然后再期待我们下一次的见面...
Jan 23, 2009
没脑
忍了你们好久了！没人住的屋子你就可以把它当成是你的停车位吗？问题是，你自己家明明就可以停两辆车，家外面勉强给你多停两辆车，你家正门口也可以多停一辆车，干嘛偏偏要放空自己的家，停在我家正门口呢？
怎么？车多你就很大是吗？车多代表你可以不用用脑是吗？车多代表你们连人都不是了是吗？我连想要用动物来比喻你们都很不屑，猪都比你们更有脑！！！
新年了，也不做做一些能让人觉得开心的事。噢，忘了，你们不是人！>.<
怎么？车多你就很大是吗？车多代表你可以不用用脑是吗？车多代表你们连人都不是了是吗？我连想要用动物来比喻你们都很不屑，猪都比你们更有脑！！！
新年了，也不做做一些能让人觉得开心的事。噢，忘了，你们不是人！>.<
Jan 22, 2009
回不去
当我致力与妈妈“沟通”我以后不一定要结婚，你突然很赞同的，说你也可以不结婚跟我过一辈子。我想妈妈当时一定很想掐死你，你的风凉话彻底破坏了她的洗脑。不过，不论有没有你那一着，她的洗脑都不会成功的，哈！
说真的，我不是不认同的。我们真的可以就这么过一辈子的，那种安全感，才是最大的，是吧？
我们认识了多久呢？我应该是一张眼就认识你的，可是前面的好多年真的很空白，完全不在记忆里。只是记得我们趁大人都不在的时候，玩得天翻地覆，忘了是怎么样，是你抱着我来甩的吗？在像超人笔直地朝沙发枕头堆飞去的时候，“砰啷”一声，青瓷椅（状似花瓶）破了个大洞，吓傻了你们！ 突然，一个小头从枕头堆钻了出来，没破头没流血没淤青，还笑着说自己有铁头功，应该是撞傻了。 过后才开始担心大人回来后会一个个把我们给宰了，你居然把那椅子推去角落，将破了大洞的那一面朝向角落里，所看得见的“部分”都是完好无缺的。结果还真的给我们瞒天过海了很久，最后才知道原来不怎么值钱，亏我们那时又内疚又提心吊胆的！
再过后，我们都长大了，不再常常看见对方，各自也开始有了自己的生活。我们当然还很关心大家，只是我们的世界比以前更大，距离也更远了。可以见面的时候，觉得很温暖，很安心，很不设防；从来没有真正告诉过你这些感受，因为我们总在吵吵闹闹拳打脚踢中度过。
我很记得，大学时被室友的家人欺负。都半夜了，你特地将你屋友（最大只的那一个）从被单里挖起，火速赶来学校，原本是想揍人家一顿先是吧？幸好他们走了，不然我也不知道要怎么收拾到时候的残局了。你一直抱着我，一直轻轻地拍着我的背，口里也一直碎碎念，一直怪我没有更早通知你，还要他从爸爸口中才知道，不然的话或许还可以让你碰见他们（最好可以打人 -_-），也不会让我被他们欺负。过后的一个星期，你一直来学校催校方给你们一个交待，结果我的室友不再是室友，不知道搬去哪里遗害人间，好像也被校方口头警告还是什么的。可你还不死心的叫我找出室友的名字，势没把他们骂/揍一顿为小人也。我也没理你太多，反正她走了就好了。
也是在大学的时候被人欺负了，不敢跟你说些什么，只是一直很急着要回去，你拗不过我，只好让我回了。在我上车的时候，看你急急忙忙地跑来，抱着我一直问我有没有事？我哭得一个字都说不出来，你又心疼又生气地抱怨，为什么都没告诉你呢？我知道你很自责，觉得你没有保护到我，让我受伤害了。然后又想跟我一起找他所谓的混帐，好好教训人家一顿，当然还是被我阻止了，因为我还是比较害怕要收拾到时候的残局。你的流氓性格总是这样的，从小到大没变过，什么事情就想揍人家一顿，没得打至少也得呛声一下。你说，让不让人担心呢？我还是没有告诉过你，我真的很感激你的，谢谢你！虽然你觉得那是你应该做的，但是你不知道，当时让我感觉到原来我是这么小心翼翼地被捧着来珍惜，比起其它的，真的重要太多太多了。顿时让我庆幸着所有的伤害和委屈，让我知道你会在背后永远撑着我，就算我再也走不动了，你不会抱着我走，但是却宁愿一直为我停留，直到我可以再站起来重新面对。
原本是很幸福的，可是我却觉得很感伤。因为我们再也回不去了。虽然我们承诺过，无论如何，我们都不会变的。但是着整个世界都充满着变数，我没有办法想象当我们都有了比彼此更重要的人，我们还是可以这样吗？
希望，你可以开开心心地过你的生活，创造你想要的未来，好吗？不要后悔你做过的决定，既然那是人生必经之路，那么就勇敢的、有信心的一步一步走下去！
终究，我们的世界不再只有我们，多希望我们不曾长大...
说真的，我不是不认同的。我们真的可以就这么过一辈子的，那种安全感，才是最大的，是吧？
我们认识了多久呢？我应该是一张眼就认识你的，可是前面的好多年真的很空白，完全不在记忆里。只是记得我们趁大人都不在的时候，玩得天翻地覆，忘了是怎么样，是你抱着我来甩的吗？在像超人笔直地朝沙发枕头堆飞去的时候，“砰啷”一声，青瓷椅（状似花瓶）破了个大洞，吓傻了你们！ 突然，一个小头从枕头堆钻了出来，没破头没流血没淤青，还笑着说自己有铁头功，应该是撞傻了。 过后才开始担心大人回来后会一个个把我们给宰了，你居然把那椅子推去角落，将破了大洞的那一面朝向角落里，所看得见的“部分”都是完好无缺的。结果还真的给我们瞒天过海了很久，最后才知道原来不怎么值钱，亏我们那时又内疚又提心吊胆的！
再过后，我们都长大了，不再常常看见对方，各自也开始有了自己的生活。我们当然还很关心大家，只是我们的世界比以前更大，距离也更远了。可以见面的时候，觉得很温暖，很安心，很不设防；从来没有真正告诉过你这些感受，因为我们总在吵吵闹闹拳打脚踢中度过。
我很记得，大学时被室友的家人欺负。都半夜了，你特地将你屋友（最大只的那一个）从被单里挖起，火速赶来学校，原本是想揍人家一顿先是吧？幸好他们走了，不然我也不知道要怎么收拾到时候的残局了。你一直抱着我，一直轻轻地拍着我的背，口里也一直碎碎念，一直怪我没有更早通知你，还要他从爸爸口中才知道，不然的话或许还可以让你碰见他们（最好可以打人 -_-），也不会让我被他们欺负。过后的一个星期，你一直来学校催校方给你们一个交待，结果我的室友不再是室友，不知道搬去哪里遗害人间，好像也被校方口头警告还是什么的。可你还不死心的叫我找出室友的名字，势没把他们骂/揍一顿为小人也。我也没理你太多，反正她走了就好了。
也是在大学的时候被人欺负了，不敢跟你说些什么，只是一直很急着要回去，你拗不过我，只好让我回了。在我上车的时候，看你急急忙忙地跑来，抱着我一直问我有没有事？我哭得一个字都说不出来，你又心疼又生气地抱怨，为什么都没告诉你呢？我知道你很自责，觉得你没有保护到我，让我受伤害了。然后又想跟我一起找他所谓的混帐，好好教训人家一顿，当然还是被我阻止了，因为我还是比较害怕要收拾到时候的残局。你的流氓性格总是这样的，从小到大没变过，什么事情就想揍人家一顿，没得打至少也得呛声一下。你说，让不让人担心呢？我还是没有告诉过你，我真的很感激你的，谢谢你！虽然你觉得那是你应该做的，但是你不知道，当时让我感觉到原来我是这么小心翼翼地被捧着来珍惜，比起其它的，真的重要太多太多了。顿时让我庆幸着所有的伤害和委屈，让我知道你会在背后永远撑着我，就算我再也走不动了，你不会抱着我走，但是却宁愿一直为我停留，直到我可以再站起来重新面对。
原本是很幸福的，可是我却觉得很感伤。因为我们再也回不去了。虽然我们承诺过，无论如何，我们都不会变的。但是着整个世界都充满着变数，我没有办法想象当我们都有了比彼此更重要的人，我们还是可以这样吗？
希望，你可以开开心心地过你的生活，创造你想要的未来，好吗？不要后悔你做过的决定，既然那是人生必经之路，那么就勇敢的、有信心的一步一步走下去！
终究，我们的世界不再只有我们，多希望我们不曾长大...
Jan 21, 2009
烦躁
新年快到了，却没被欢庆的气氛所感染。突然想着，为什么要过年呢？忙得一团乱，什么都得换新的，什么都得抹得干干净净，过后呢？又开始积尘、又开始弄脏、又开始没有人整理...然后再拖着拖着，又一年了，又再忙得一团乱，又再换新的、又再抹得干干净净...年复一年，一直重复着，到底是为了什么？
我懂的，只是心烦了一些，所以才想到这有的没的。
我... 一直很烦躁，觉得很多事情都很不顺心，可是其实那些也不是什么大不了的事，就好像有时走得太急撞到了桌角，踢倒了椅子，没什么大不了，可还是很忍不住地咒骂几句，最惨的是，没有人可以给我赖，只有怨自己笨，运气背。
我只是... 不想讲话，不想接电话，不想回简讯，不可以吗？
我...好像遗失了很多我以为还属于我的东西，所以...才烦躁的吗？
# 那一个人 爱我 将我的手 紧握
抱紧我 吻我 喔...爱 别走 #
我懂的，只是心烦了一些，所以才想到这有的没的。
我... 一直很烦躁，觉得很多事情都很不顺心，可是其实那些也不是什么大不了的事，就好像有时走得太急撞到了桌角，踢倒了椅子，没什么大不了，可还是很忍不住地咒骂几句，最惨的是，没有人可以给我赖，只有怨自己笨，运气背。
我只是... 不想讲话，不想接电话，不想回简讯，不可以吗？
我...好像遗失了很多我以为还属于我的东西，所以...才烦躁的吗？
# 那一个人 爱我 将我的手 紧握
抱紧我 吻我 喔...爱 别走 #
Jan 17, 2009
我希望的
好累...
但还是要记得
生日快乐噢 !
一个个被划过的日期
提醒着自己活在这世上到底有多久了
年龄年复一年地增长
心龄则以倍数在剧增
心智却好像慢慢地退化，再倒带
真正的岁龄，居然让我无从考察
只好相信世间恒久维持的规律来算计
无论如何
我希望......
我希望......
我希望......
要许三个愿望，不是吗？
=)
但还是要记得
生日快乐噢 !
一个个被划过的日期
提醒着自己活在这世上到底有多久了
年龄年复一年地增长
心龄则以倍数在剧增
心智却好像慢慢地退化，再倒带
真正的岁龄，居然让我无从考察
只好相信世间恒久维持的规律来算计
无论如何
我希望......
我希望......
我希望......
要许三个愿望，不是吗？
=)
Jan 13, 2009
1st Trip of 2009
I'm back, though it wasn't a tiring trip, but I feel a bit restless.
Hong Kong is as usual, forever so happening, so crowded with people. The weather there was slightly colder, in fact, it's the coldest among our trips in Hong Kong. Weather forecast showed the temperature was between 12-17 degree Celsius. Hrmmp...we still took for granted (a bit :P) by only bringing some thin long sleeves, didn't even bother to bring a windbreaker, we're too afraid that thick clothes would take up space and also weight of our luggage, lol... The outcome? The temperature was lower than expected, only 9-10 degree on daytime, and three of us were shivering and sort of freezing while we're walking on the street. All the salespersons were amazed with our "under-dressed", thought that we're from some really cold countries which made us get use to the cold weather, coz even locals dressed themselves like dumplings.
Fa Yuen Street in MongKok
Regardless of the cold weather, we really enjoyed ourselves very much. We shopped like there's no tomorrow, too hard to control. And after one and a half day, we started to afraid whether those clothes would be able to fit in our luggage, whether our luggage would be overweight, whether the money payer (my dad) would be grumbling until we're drowned in his saliva...etc etc etc. That was when we three started to keep remind and warn each other to STOP buying. Mum was saying that we just never learnt, through so many past experiences. Haha...that is sooooo true!
Besides shopping, we did find some good food. Sis had prepared a list of must-go-restasturant, we didn't complete the list, coz we're too lazy and too tired and too hungry to go to those restaurants. We'd only go to the restaurants if it's convenient, or so coincidently we're there. -___- But anyhow, the food there was good. Even some restaurants were not on the list, but the food was just simply satisfying.
All my pictures were taken by my sis while I was eating -____-
Another interesting thing we did in HK was -- watching movie in hotel. We'd watch movie once we're in our hotel room. I've never watch so many movies in 4 days time. Although those weren't new movies, but they're as enjoyable. In Good Company, The Thomas Crown Affair, Anna and the King, Speed, Leather Weapon, The Silence of the Lambs...and some movies which I don't really remember the names. In addition to those, we watched movies in the flight like Bangkok Dangerous, In Her Shoes, The Dutchess, City of Ember... Just so entertained by all those movies.
So all those concluded our 4D3N trip to Hong Kong. And I was warned not to do any shopping in a year time. Let's see how then :P
Something intereting to share, HK people eat KFC with plastic gloves provided, so cute rite?
-Took few shots juz for the person's plastic glove, my shoulder blocked the KFC :P-
Hong Kong is as usual, forever so happening, so crowded with people. The weather there was slightly colder, in fact, it's the coldest among our trips in Hong Kong. Weather forecast showed the temperature was between 12-17 degree Celsius. Hrmmp...we still took for granted (a bit :P) by only bringing some thin long sleeves, didn't even bother to bring a windbreaker, we're too afraid that thick clothes would take up space and also weight of our luggage, lol... The outcome? The temperature was lower than expected, only 9-10 degree on daytime, and three of us were shivering and sort of freezing while we're walking on the street. All the salespersons were amazed with our "under-dressed", thought that we're from some really cold countries which made us get use to the cold weather, coz even locals dressed themselves like dumplings.
Fa Yuen Street in MongKokRegardless of the cold weather, we really enjoyed ourselves very much. We shopped like there's no tomorrow, too hard to control. And after one and a half day, we started to afraid whether those clothes would be able to fit in our luggage, whether our luggage would be overweight, whether the money payer (my dad) would be grumbling until we're drowned in his saliva...etc etc etc. That was when we three started to keep remind and warn each other to STOP buying. Mum was saying that we just never learnt, through so many past experiences. Haha...that is sooooo true!
Besides shopping, we did find some good food. Sis had prepared a list of must-go-restasturant, we didn't complete the list, coz we're too lazy and too tired and too hungry to go to those restaurants. We'd only go to the restaurants if it's convenient, or so coincidently we're there. -___- But anyhow, the food there was good. Even some restaurants were not on the list, but the food was just simply satisfying.
All my pictures were taken by my sis while I was eating -____-Another interesting thing we did in HK was -- watching movie in hotel. We'd watch movie once we're in our hotel room. I've never watch so many movies in 4 days time. Although those weren't new movies, but they're as enjoyable. In Good Company, The Thomas Crown Affair, Anna and the King, Speed, Leather Weapon, The Silence of the Lambs...and some movies which I don't really remember the names. In addition to those, we watched movies in the flight like Bangkok Dangerous, In Her Shoes, The Dutchess, City of Ember... Just so entertained by all those movies.
So all those concluded our 4D3N trip to Hong Kong. And I was warned not to do any shopping in a year time. Let's see how then :P
Something intereting to share, HK people eat KFC with plastic gloves provided, so cute rite?
-Took few shots juz for the person's plastic glove, my shoulder blocked the KFC :P-Jan 4, 2009
宁静
今天的天气很好，一扫之前的大风大雨，开始有阳光，却也没急着灼伤被风雨肆虐过的所有。就只是...静静地、不着痕迹地投射到所有接触面...
一小阵子喧嚣忙碌的日子过后， 一切也终于尘埃落定。在松了一口气的同时，我心中居然开始觉得很空荡、很茫然、很不知所措... 还来不及想通的时候，我又生病了。嗯... 算不上什么大病，可是还是让我郁闷了好一阵子。
今天病得也几乎快好了，看着窗外的天空，决定到小小庭院走走，呼吸雨后有阳光的空气。踩着草堆中的石灰路，看着家里枯了一半的花朵和营养不良的的高树再加上一对参差不齐的绿盆栽，觉得很好笑，心情不自觉轻松了起来。一直来回那短短的石灰路，有一下没一下地感受到阳光的那种温热。那时的我是希望，在经过阳光的洗礼后，可以抚慰也可以温暖那无措的心...
虽然时间很短，但心灵因为这片刻的宁静，而感到了喜悦...
一小阵子喧嚣忙碌的日子过后， 一切也终于尘埃落定。在松了一口气的同时，我心中居然开始觉得很空荡、很茫然、很不知所措... 还来不及想通的时候，我又生病了。嗯... 算不上什么大病，可是还是让我郁闷了好一阵子。
今天病得也几乎快好了，看着窗外的天空，决定到小小庭院走走，呼吸雨后有阳光的空气。踩着草堆中的石灰路，看着家里枯了一半的花朵和营养不良的的高树再加上一对参差不齐的绿盆栽，觉得很好笑，心情不自觉轻松了起来。一直来回那短短的石灰路，有一下没一下地感受到阳光的那种温热。那时的我是希望，在经过阳光的洗礼后，可以抚慰也可以温暖那无措的心...
虽然时间很短，但心灵因为这片刻的宁静，而感到了喜悦...
Jan 3, 2009
不眠记
清晨坐车到吉隆坡，中午去面试，下午又坐车回来关丹。来回近乎6小时的车程，在伟大的爱情当前，完全不是一回事，我说的是姐姐的男友。我只是搭顺风车的小妹。
一路上被感冒折腾着，眼睛含泪，鼻子红通通的，鼻水像关不住的水龙头一样，不知道浪费了多少包的面纸，皮都擦破了。朋友帮我买了伤风药，不嗜睡不伤胃的那种，治不治得了伤风是一回事，它的不嗜睡倒真的是让我一夜未眠。
结果一整晚眼睁睁望着转动的风扇，听着暴雨如何肆虐，感受着超强劲的风。为什么说是超强劲的风，因为它的威力大得可以晃动紧闭着的窗口继而渗透，害我多打了几个喷嚏，这样有够强劲了吧！说真的我还真想到屋外感受一下迟来的风港天，但我现在的这般身子还是算了吧，省得被风吹走还不知道发生了什么事。
其实我还读了蔡智恒的《回眸》，希望让自己更累一些，就会比较好睡。书是读完了，但却被书里那些回忆、记忆、遗忘的事、执著的事弄得更感触。脑里一直浮现很多画面，太多太快得我不知道是什么画面。只是突然，今天姐姐男友跟我说的话还有韩剧里的一段话，一字一句地列印，交叠但却很清晰，纵使两者之间一丁点联系也没有。
姐姐男友在看到我喝水的时候说：“伤风了就不要喝那么多水，不然鼻水会越来越多。” 啥？真的吗？生病不是应该喝更多的水吗？喝了的水会变成鼻水？我还以为因为鼻水像关不住的水龙头，我会失水过多所以才更要补充水分的。
韩剧〈雪之女王〉是很悲伤但也很好看。里面的一段话大概是这样的：就算很想逃避也不要闭上眼睛，不要逃跑；还有，活下去，因为活着更好。我想，很多时候对于很多事情，我们不会面对，也不敢面对；又或者一时之间有很多不开心的事一起发生，会让人有点不知所措，但是，不要逃避，也不要觉得活着太辛苦，可以活着，才可以有希望，不是吗？
两者之间是不是真的有点太跳格呢？可是它们真的在我脑里交叠着。人脑，真神奇啊！
吃药了，也该去睡觉了。纵然，窗外还是狂风暴雨着...
一路上被感冒折腾着，眼睛含泪，鼻子红通通的，鼻水像关不住的水龙头一样，不知道浪费了多少包的面纸，皮都擦破了。朋友帮我买了伤风药，不嗜睡不伤胃的那种，治不治得了伤风是一回事，它的不嗜睡倒真的是让我一夜未眠。
结果一整晚眼睁睁望着转动的风扇，听着暴雨如何肆虐，感受着超强劲的风。为什么说是超强劲的风，因为它的威力大得可以晃动紧闭着的窗口继而渗透，害我多打了几个喷嚏，这样有够强劲了吧！说真的我还真想到屋外感受一下迟来的风港天，但我现在的这般身子还是算了吧，省得被风吹走还不知道发生了什么事。
其实我还读了蔡智恒的《回眸》，希望让自己更累一些，就会比较好睡。书是读完了，但却被书里那些回忆、记忆、遗忘的事、执著的事弄得更感触。脑里一直浮现很多画面，太多太快得我不知道是什么画面。只是突然，今天姐姐男友跟我说的话还有韩剧里的一段话，一字一句地列印，交叠但却很清晰，纵使两者之间一丁点联系也没有。
姐姐男友在看到我喝水的时候说：“伤风了就不要喝那么多水，不然鼻水会越来越多。” 啥？真的吗？生病不是应该喝更多的水吗？喝了的水会变成鼻水？我还以为因为鼻水像关不住的水龙头，我会失水过多所以才更要补充水分的。
韩剧〈雪之女王〉是很悲伤但也很好看。里面的一段话大概是这样的：就算很想逃避也不要闭上眼睛，不要逃跑；还有，活下去，因为活着更好。我想，很多时候对于很多事情，我们不会面对，也不敢面对；又或者一时之间有很多不开心的事一起发生，会让人有点不知所措，但是，不要逃避，也不要觉得活着太辛苦，可以活着，才可以有希望，不是吗？
两者之间是不是真的有点太跳格呢？可是它们真的在我脑里交叠着。人脑，真神奇啊！
吃药了，也该去睡觉了。纵然，窗外还是狂风暴雨着...
Jan 1, 2009
新年快乐
我曾欣喜它的到来，
如今却哀悼它的逝去。
终于肯相信，
终于肯面对，
我始终握不牢，也抓不住。
谢谢过去所有的记忆，
就算是痛的，就算是沉重的，
我想，
我也可以微笑着看待。
我知道调整有多么不容易。
但是，活着不就是这么一回事吗？
唯有跨越，才能成就更好的自己。
重新来过；
重新开始；
然后，再重新出发...
Someday, I'll find you.
如今却哀悼它的逝去。
终于肯相信，
终于肯面对，
我始终握不牢，也抓不住。
谢谢过去所有的记忆，
就算是痛的，就算是沉重的，
我想，
我也可以微笑着看待。
我知道调整有多么不容易。
但是，活着不就是这么一回事吗？
唯有跨越，才能成就更好的自己。
重新来过；
重新开始；
然后，再重新出发...
Someday, I'll find you.
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