Hola, it's Monday again... Time just passed when I don't realize it, it's already mid of April, but I feel that have not yet do anything for this year. Couldn't really recall what I've done, loitering in my office? lolZ...
Just got to go back to Kuantan last weekend, pretty fast weekend, but I felt great! =)
Went to urut my leg twice, and now I'm suffering the "after-urut" effect. That wasn't a great experience coz I was in pain until I don't feel like talking but the urut master kept asking me questions and expected my answer >.< HALO... can't you see my face had crumpled and out of shape???!!! How'd you expect me to talk when my mouth was not at the right place??? I'd have few more times to go, please bless me!
Had the chance to sort of have a "deep" talk with my mum, about her children in future life. Well, at this stage... I think my mum puts more concern in her children's marriage. MARRIAGE??!!! Oh yea that's the word... too young to listen to that rite? But hmmm... I'm in this topic with my mum *wat da...*
I always thought that my mum wouldn't really be willing when one day her daughter tells her that she's gonna get married. Coz girls are to married to another family, somehow it's saddening to have to be really apart with the little girl that has always been taken care very well. I was telling my mum that I bet she'll cry like hell if my sister really marries her bf, hahaha... Well, ended up my mum started to think of the possibilities to introduce my bro's friends to me *faint* I'm gonna find other victims or other subject to divert my mum attention before she starts to take any action!!!
Although the topic is way out of my scope, I still enjoyed the time talking to her, lying on her painful laps, behaved as though I'm a spoiled child. It feels like... I'm having lesser and lesser chance to be like that, sad rite? Ahh... I'm so complicated again... enjoy but sad... lol~
Apr 13, 2009
Apr 5, 2009
扼腕
你知道，人生就是一直在做选择、在作决定。某些时候，有些决定做得太快，实践得太有效率，太... 让人扼腕...
毅然地服食了伤风特效药后，才猛然发现时间过早。打算一觉睡到天亮的，但总不能从中午睡到第二天早上吧？又不是昏迷药。
唉... 扼腕呀...
毅然地服食了伤风特效药后，才猛然发现时间过早。打算一觉睡到天亮的，但总不能从中午睡到第二天早上吧？又不是昏迷药。
唉... 扼腕呀...
Mar 1, 2009
过了的最爱
二月是我一年之中最喜欢的月份。
也许是生日月份的关系，就是那种天性根本的喜爱了。
当然，我最爱的月份不见得是我一年之中过得最开心的，虽然我极私心的希望着。
我很遗憾，我最喜欢的月份，就这么的过了...
在开心时参夹着心碎；
在温暖中感受到失落；
在感激里深深的愧疚着；
在空虚中却奇异地欢乐着。
三月了，
我却还像是漫无目的在过生活。
每天每天，都在提醒自己，
该做些什么了，
该鼓起勇气了，
该继续地往前走了。
可我，却极怕痛极怕累，
不敢往前看，等待我的究竟有什么...
再多一些时间，可以吗？
也许是生日月份的关系，就是那种天性根本的喜爱了。
当然，我最爱的月份不见得是我一年之中过得最开心的，虽然我极私心的希望着。
我很遗憾，我最喜欢的月份，就这么的过了...
在开心时参夹着心碎；
在温暖中感受到失落；
在感激里深深的愧疚着；
在空虚中却奇异地欢乐着。
三月了，
我却还像是漫无目的在过生活。
每天每天，都在提醒自己，
该做些什么了，
该鼓起勇气了，
该继续地往前走了。
可我，却极怕痛极怕累，
不敢往前看，等待我的究竟有什么...
再多一些时间，可以吗？
Feb 8, 2009
Working
I've started working... for a week. Hmmm...nothing much I can do in the first week. Basically I just drank coffee, surfed net, read some materials which made me kinda blur, chatting, day-dreaming, and boring most of the time. I'm not complaining, just describing what I was doing in the office for the past 1 week. I'm not into the working life, yet. And so, I'm still looking forward for that. :P
I hate to be in a new environment, but at the same time that's what I want in this moment. So contradict right? Okay I know I'm a complicated girl. But don't you all think it's something very hard to get use to a new place, blending with new people, make yoursef totally comfortable in that situation? I'm an introvert person. Yes I AM. I'm learning to get over it.
I'm planning to decorate my workplace. Well, decorate sounds abit weird, just wanna make my workplace more... home-ly. But for goodness sake, I'm not sure whether the place I'm sitting now consider "MY" workplace or not. It's not like I'm sitting on someone's place, but there'd be big possibility that my whole team is gonna shift to a bigger workstation, within unsure time-frame, maybe in a month, or 3 months, or 6 months? I've got no idea. I hate the feeling of re-locating all my stuffs when I feel I've already settled down. See, I don't like to change, especially in a very short period. But anyway, I've still listed down what I wish to have or to bring to my workplace, haha...
A lot of people asked me, why you wanna work? Why not? Am I not look like those people that will work? I guess so, if not you all won't ask, lol~ I don't have any plans for my future, I don't know what I wanna do after I graduate, I don't know what dreams I do have or had before... I'm just empty. Being empty is not a good sign, that makes me wonder a lot, too a lot until I think I can't take it. So... I do what comes to me. I always believe, there will be something, that will come to my life eventually. Not forcefully, not unwanted, it is simply natural.
So, here I am now --- working. Just like any other ordinary people. =)
I hate to be in a new environment, but at the same time that's what I want in this moment. So contradict right? Okay I know I'm a complicated girl. But don't you all think it's something very hard to get use to a new place, blending with new people, make yoursef totally comfortable in that situation? I'm an introvert person. Yes I AM. I'm learning to get over it.
I'm planning to decorate my workplace. Well, decorate sounds abit weird, just wanna make my workplace more... home-ly. But for goodness sake, I'm not sure whether the place I'm sitting now consider "MY" workplace or not. It's not like I'm sitting on someone's place, but there'd be big possibility that my whole team is gonna shift to a bigger workstation, within unsure time-frame, maybe in a month, or 3 months, or 6 months? I've got no idea. I hate the feeling of re-locating all my stuffs when I feel I've already settled down. See, I don't like to change, especially in a very short period. But anyway, I've still listed down what I wish to have or to bring to my workplace, haha...
A lot of people asked me, why you wanna work? Why not? Am I not look like those people that will work? I guess so, if not you all won't ask, lol~ I don't have any plans for my future, I don't know what I wanna do after I graduate, I don't know what dreams I do have or had before... I'm just empty. Being empty is not a good sign, that makes me wonder a lot, too a lot until I think I can't take it. So... I do what comes to me. I always believe, there will be something, that will come to my life eventually. Not forcefully, not unwanted, it is simply natural.
So, here I am now --- working. Just like any other ordinary people. =)
Feb 1, 2009
还是我们
我真的没事了。如果那是在我生命中必定得经历的，我很庆幸它发生得早，并且已经结束了。所以，不要自责，不要担心了，好吗？
我曾经有希望的，希望有你或是谁，抱着我告诉我，事情会过去的，难过会结束的；还有很多很爱我的人，会陪着我度过的。只是当时的我从来没有敞开过，所以，千万千万不要责怪自己为什么不在我的身边与我分担，我会觉得很愧疚，让你那么自责担心。
真的都过去了，而我也依然好好的。学习着原谅、抚平、放下、然后遗忘。
我还是要常常告诉你，不要担心距离会疏远我们。虽然我不相信爱情可以战胜距离，但是却深信令我珍惜的友谊是不会被动摇的。在你眼里，我还是和以前一样，在我眼里，你亦如是；其实岁月并没有将我们的本质磨褪，反而更凸显，也更坚定于我们看待生命与生活的想法。这种种，不就是最好的证明了吗？
当然，你还是要常常回来找我，让我看看你，让你记得我，让我忘不了你。然后，我就开始存钱，再让你包吃包住包玩。虽然不能常在一起，但是我们不但能在时间上一起长大，还可以在岁月中一起变老，在不同的天空下一起体会。
好好照顾自己，要很快乐的生活，有事也要记得找我，不然我会忘记我在你生命中所存在的位置和扮演的角色。知道你过得很好，我才会原谅你离我那么远 (=P)。没有啦，知道你过得很好，我真的很替你开心，也会努力让自己过得更好。真的，我会过得好好的，然后再期待我们下一次的见面...
我曾经有希望的，希望有你或是谁，抱着我告诉我，事情会过去的，难过会结束的；还有很多很爱我的人，会陪着我度过的。只是当时的我从来没有敞开过，所以，千万千万不要责怪自己为什么不在我的身边与我分担，我会觉得很愧疚，让你那么自责担心。
真的都过去了，而我也依然好好的。学习着原谅、抚平、放下、然后遗忘。
我还是要常常告诉你，不要担心距离会疏远我们。虽然我不相信爱情可以战胜距离，但是却深信令我珍惜的友谊是不会被动摇的。在你眼里，我还是和以前一样，在我眼里，你亦如是；其实岁月并没有将我们的本质磨褪，反而更凸显，也更坚定于我们看待生命与生活的想法。这种种，不就是最好的证明了吗？
当然，你还是要常常回来找我，让我看看你，让你记得我，让我忘不了你。然后，我就开始存钱，再让你包吃包住包玩。虽然不能常在一起，但是我们不但能在时间上一起长大，还可以在岁月中一起变老，在不同的天空下一起体会。
好好照顾自己，要很快乐的生活，有事也要记得找我，不然我会忘记我在你生命中所存在的位置和扮演的角色。知道你过得很好，我才会原谅你离我那么远 (=P)。没有啦，知道你过得很好，我真的很替你开心，也会努力让自己过得更好。真的，我会过得好好的，然后再期待我们下一次的见面...
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