Working

I've started working... for a week. Hmmm...nothing much I can do in the first week. Basically I just drank coffee, surfed net, read some materials which made me kinda blur, chatting, day-dreaming, and boring most of the time. I'm not complaining, just describing what I was doing in the office for the past 1 week. I'm not into the working life, yet. And so, I'm still looking forward for that. :P

I hate to be in a new environment, but at the same time that's what I want in this moment. So contradict right? Okay I know I'm a complicated girl. But don't you all think it's something very hard to get use to a new place, blending with new people, make yoursef totally comfortable in that situation? I'm an introvert person. Yes I AM. I'm learning to get over it.

I'm planning to decorate my workplace. Well, decorate sounds abit weird, just wanna make my workplace more... home-ly. But for goodness sake, I'm not sure whether the place I'm sitting now consider "MY" workplace or not. It's not like I'm sitting on someone's place, but there'd be big possibility that my whole team is gonna shift to a bigger workstation, within unsure time-frame, maybe in a month, or 3 months, or 6 months? I've got no idea. I hate the feeling of re-locating all my stuffs when I feel I've already settled down. See, I don't like to change, especially in a very short period. But anyway, I've still listed down what I wish to have or to bring to my workplace, haha...

A lot of people asked me, why you wanna work? Why not? Am I not look like those people that will work? I guess so, if not you all won't ask, lol~ I don't have any plans for my future, I don't know what I wanna do after I graduate, I don't know what dreams I do have or had before... I'm just empty. Being empty is not a good sign, that makes me wonder a lot, too a lot until I think I can't take it. So... I do what comes to me. I always believe, there will be something, that will come to my life eventually. Not forcefully, not unwanted, it is simply natural.

So, here I am now --- working. Just like any other ordinary people. =)

还是我们

我真的没事了。如果那是在我生命中必定得经历的，我很庆幸它发生得早，并且已经结束了。所以，不要自责，不要担心了，好吗？

我曾经有希望的，希望有你或是谁，抱着我告诉我，事情会过去的，难过会结束的；还有很多很爱我的人，会陪着我度过的。只是当时的我从来没有敞开过，所以，千万千万不要责怪自己为什么不在我的身边与我分担，我会觉得很愧疚，让你那么自责担心。

真的都过去了，而我也依然好好的。学习着原谅、抚平、放下、然后遗忘。

我还是要常常告诉你，不要担心距离会疏远我们。虽然我不相信爱情可以战胜距离，但是却深信令我珍惜的友谊是不会被动摇的。在你眼里，我还是和以前一样，在我眼里，你亦如是；其实岁月并没有将我们的本质磨褪，反而更凸显，也更坚定于我们看待生命与生活的想法。这种种，不就是最好的证明了吗？

当然，你还是要常常回来找我，让我看看你，让你记得我，让我忘不了你。然后，我就开始存钱，再让你包吃包住包玩。虽然不能常在一起，但是我们不但能在时间上一起长大，还可以在岁月中一起变老，在不同的天空下一起体会。

好好照顾自己，要很快乐的生活，有事也要记得找我，不然我会忘记我在你生命中所存在的位置和扮演的角色。知道你过得很好，我才会原谅你离我那么远 (=P)。没有啦，知道你过得很好，我真的很替你开心，也会努力让自己过得更好。真的，我会过得好好的，然后再期待我们下一次的见面...